Cali-Bel's poetry

I love it though it sounds like you need someone to talk to..I am always here for you.

calico wrote:

Failed to Be

Lies = Betrayal
Broken Promises = Trust Issues

Parents are suppose to love you no matter what,
suppose to want you in their lives,
suppose to catch you when you fall,
suppose to put their family first.

Daddy lied to me again,
he broke another promise,
he blew me off like I was nothing,
he chose his friends over his daughter.
He asked me to not come see him this weekend or the next
and then he complains of how little we see each other.

Daddy promised this would never happen again,
he preaches integrity but doesn’t show any,
he has shown me how to lose faith,
he has shown me how to fall when I need a safety net,
but most of all he has shown me how to stand on my own.

Your family is suppose to be the one thing you can count on,
suppose be there when you need them,
suppose to not judge you unfairly,
suppose to be your safe haven,
suppose to be the people you run to when you need a hug,
and this is what mine has fails to be.

I liked this a lot. although i haven't gone through this, but the pain, grief, agony and despair... every bit of sorrow extends out and grabs the reader.pretty pretty... but it's really sad...
If that happens to be your life, I hope you can embrace it (: for only accepting and embracing can let you walk further. Well as we grow, we have more problems in life... so yeah... those parents who don't know how to relief stress the right way, the just built it up within themselves and pour it on anyone around them. If you can live with such a person in your life, you're the true winner of this 'act'. as to why i say it's an 'act', it's because we all pull on masks too often to count and we learn to fake identities... doesn't that sound like actors and actresses? they have their own personality, but they act as the character they're portraying. We're all acting in this massive production, you, me, our families, friends, teachers, classmates, acquaintances of all walks of life, even strangers, they are all playing in this film. We're all the main actors and actresses, just that we are not being controlled, we've the freedom to control what we want to do in the next storyboard. (alright i'm drifting from point) so back at it, all i wish is that you can walk out of this. (all the better if you can walk out of it alone, it shows you're strong enough.)

GANBATTE!

calico wrote:

Never Enough

Not good enough, not good enough.
Retarded. Stupid.
Wrong. Worthless.
Not good enough, not good enough.

Foul words spinning around.
Why bother. Loser
Not worth it. Waste.
Foul thoughts eating away.

Losing hope, spirit crushed.
A constant banter.
Assaulting my ears.
Spirit losing, hope crushed.

Eating foul thoughts away.
Spinning foul words around.
Never enough, no.
Not good Enough.

I used to feel likewise too... Until someone took my hand and walked me out of it.

Awww, don't be depressed alright? The most important person in your life that's worth all your time, effort, money, brain cells, everything you own, is none others but yourself (: So if you can afford to love yourself or can't afford to keep yourself happy, don't try to make others happy. You'll end up screwing up your own life further. So just make yourself happy. In fact, it's okay not to have friends, because you're your best friend (: